seriously need to make my blog look more like an eye candy. will do that soon.

sleepy-eyed.(+close-up fro the side) rub eyes. expression as though person just woke up. person just lying down hair fanning above head. focus on camera.  close-up silhouette of hand with liquid dripping.

So yes, I've realized pretty recently I should've been uploading things on this blog but I've been keeping research material & building up on them.

Here are the things that are crucial to cover in what I'm doing:

-Style of that movement
-Things frequently depicted in that movement
-Composition used in that movement

And apparently

-How the movement came about

is going to have to take last priority because... I has been taking the first & I've not been as productive as I am expected to be. History does take a lot of time. It's like getting to know a person's true colors. But all in all, I have loved every minute of research. Now... FInd me some... models!!

I realize I should explain why I chose to learn art history although, it really doesn't take much to figure out. I'm in a media design course. It'd only be right to know the history of what you're trying to produce. =) Multiple times before it did bother me to not know & yeah you can ask 'why didn't you learn it then then?' Well, I was... slow & easily distracted but I've been working to improve on not being those things so, now's the time to learn on art!

So I've changed direction for now, the project I wanted to do 2nd is being my 1st. In this project I aim to have a greater understanding of art history, the different art movements through time. I'm thinking of starting from the Renaissance period onwards since that time period was the beginning of man's move towards the modern era... Of course I tend to get distracted & keep going backwards to the Byzantine & Roman & Greek era simply because it all doesn't stop & I keep wanting to know, 'oh, how'd it lead to this & how'd this lead to that?'


So, as much as I'd learn about the cause & effect of the art movements, I realize that the identifying the techniques behind the different art movements would be crucial to for process of producing something for the end result of this whole journey. Let's dive! =D

I would think of Black Swan and American Psycho as my references... but if I am muting the sound, visually, Black Swan would come across stronger in terms of confusing thoughts & reality. Then again, I am including a script in here...

I've quite settled on an idea(nothing's ever really settled until you get submerged in it) to do a film of expression on depression. To get into a depressed mind's thoughts & film the different & drastic changes in personality that comes with them. Thoughts & physical movements/expressions will be smudged together ending in very much of a 'Black Swan' effect when you're never really sure which is reality & which isn't or is has the event really happened or was it just the person's mind losing it's touch with reality. It'll be fun to work on this.


I did some research on depression found these things:




Causes of depression

Sometimes there may be an obvious reason for becoming depressed, sometimes not. There is usually more than one cause and different people have different reasons.(This should be pretty obvious 'cause different people are in contact with different experiences. Sure, some things might be similar for a few people but no two people have identical experiences unless they're always around each other all the time & get exposed to the same things.)

It may seem obvious why – there may be life events or changes in circumstance such as a relationship breakdown, bereavement or even the birth of a child – but sometimes it's not clear. Either way, it can become so bad that you need help.

Often people don't realize how depressed they are, because the depression has come on gradually. They may try to struggle on and cope by keeping busy. This can make them even more stressed and exhausted. This can cause physical pains, such as constant headaches, or sleeplessness.


Psychological symptoms include:

-continuous low mood or sadness

-feeling hopeless and helpless

-having low self-esteem 

-feeling tearful

-feeling guilt-ridden

-feeling irritable and intolerant of others 

-having no motivation or interest in things

-finding it difficult to make decisions

-not getting any enjoyment out of life

-having suicidal thoughts or thoughts of harming yourself

-feeling anxious or worried 

Physical symptoms include:

-Moving or speeking more slowly than usual 

-change in appetite or weight (usually decreased, but sometimes increased) 

-constipation 

-unexplained aches and pains

-lack of energy or lack of interest in sex

-changes to your menstrual cycle

-disturbed sleep (for example, finding it hard to fall asleep at night or waking up very early in the morning)

Social symptoms include:

-not doing well at work

-taking part in fewer social activities and avoiding contact with friends

-neglecting your hobbies and interests

-having difficulties in your home and family life

Major depression significantly affects a person's family and personal relationships, work or school life, sleeping and eating habits, and general health. Its impact on functioning and well-being has been compared to that of chronic medical conditions such as diabetes.

A person having a major depressive episode usually exhibits a very low mood, which pervades all aspects of life, and an inability to experience pleasure in activities that were formerly enjoyed. Depressed people may be preoccupied with, or ruminate over, thoughts and feelings of worthlessness, inappropriate guilt or regret, helplessness, hopelessness, and self-hatred. In severe cases, depressed people may have symptoms of psychosis. These symptoms include delusions or, less commonly, hallucinations, usually unpleasant. Other symptoms of depression include poor concentration and memory (especially in those with melancholic or psychotic features), withdrawal from social situations and activities, reduced sex drive, and thoughts of death or suicide.

Insomnia is common among the depressed. In the typical pattern, a person wakes very early and cannot get back to sleep, but insomnia can also include difficulty falling asleep. Insomnia affects at least 80% of depressed people. Hypersomnia, or oversleeping, can also happen, affecting 15% of depressed people. Some antidepressants may also cause insomnia due to their stimulating effect.

A depressed person may report multiple physical symptoms such as fatigue, headaches, or digestive problems; physical complaints are the most common presenting problem in developing countries, according to the World Health Organization's criteria for depression. Appetite often decreases, with resulting weight loss, although increased appetite and weight gain occasionally occur. Family and friends may notice that the person's behavior is either agitated or lethargic.

So, as you can tell, there's never a fix set of symptoms. Yup... the mind's tricky. I can to a conclusion to sort through my thoughts and come up with a script and scenes that is currently all over my mind. sometimes the vision so clear. Then I start writing & it fizzles out... it's like it all gets transferred from my mind to the paper. Then I find that the writings on the paper are way too emotional that they're not very useful for this piece...